This smile

I smile, can you see it? Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... nobody talks. They rather write up a complex set of lines describing what this is. Who are you my newcomer, why do you aspire to bring me tears? If I cry, all I am giving you is water, the rest is sold. You visitors think a lot before you plan to stay in here for your holidays. So what if the bed has got a funny spring, the food is warm and you get some good stories to take back home.

Let me sleep
you silly night
dont show up again
with your empty bag of dreams
memories, I rather forget
reflections of rusted silence
do I shout
when you knock my door?
I call you in
now let me relax
I have to knit together
some forgotten strings.

Shringi
June 23, 2010

The art of studying

Authors are true artists and books bliss. I love to study, find it artistic and wish to do stuff as a hobby - at leisure. The numbers, the alphabets, the cryptic knowledge excites me. I wish to be a student all my life but study only as a luxury. I like to solve things but not in a day, in ages. Well, I am not a brilliant kid and am going to discover nothing but often fantasize being able to read everything. I am forgetful and stupid but that's the fun part I blv, to learn when u know nothing. I am 24 and have below average knowledge compared to many but I am well adjusted with my level of brains. I would love you to teach me whatever you know. Its an art - to study. I love doing it and crave for more when I part from it.

As sure as I am that I wont be making any inventions, I am of not wanting to. Everyday comes with a moment of enlightenment and here I am living one. I keep telling people how important it is to be on time and have the right vision, do something to achieve something and do it for real. I stand outside of this philosophy of mine. I am happy to relax and laze in luxury or scarcity with no propulsion towards any kind of anything. I really peep into myself to find that all I need is a true personality that acts as a transparent gateway of pure knowledge, to learn and to give some. I want to move out of the institutions where they teach treachery along with maths and literature. Time to stand and live a life where you dont need to cheat at any level. There is nothing more important than to be who you want yourself to be. There is nothing more beautiful than to live an artful day, learn, study, sleep with a full mind and wake up empty. Friends come here, lets build something. Catch all that you can before you die in some storm, for you its money, for me the wind, for him it is some wood and for his son it is honey.

So it seems that I want to study all life and drink art. Well, to face it, as of now I am a loser who wants to do a million things but doesn't know really what. Do I have the courage to know my needs, what fulfills me, is their any profession that calls me to it. Why am I scared and unsure of myself. I want to do something I can do which I will be happy if coincides with what I dream to do.I have written too many words here so Johny tell me what you think. Being a nomad is a noble adventure.

After a lot of nonsense, I have decided that I will be a teacher like I have always wanted to be, teach what I know and learn what I don't. The plan is to grow.

Shringi

17 June 2010

Haiku of the day - girls and dreams

Two little damsels
hold hands and go to the jungle
to steal tiny sunbeams

Shringi
17 June 2010

Series

experiments
challenges
boredom
wisdom
fantasy

interrogations
solutions
offense
pretense
penalty

suggestions
complications
hassles
puzzles
possibility

ideas
deployments
races
chases
victory

Shringi
16 - june - 2010

Technical update

Since this is a non technical space, I will dwell only in the delight and certain facts of my latest tech endeavor. As many know I am building a haptic glove that dreams to give some feedback to the user when he tries touching a virtual object. It is fun.

After two weeks of implementing the finger tracking and collision detection of the fingers with the object, today, I jumped in phase two of the project i.e. actually building the glove. The feeling is the most satisfying I have ever had in my work life. Although I am nervous and unsure about my abilities, techniques and dedication, I am immensely excited to be a part of my imagination. This is the first time I am living my early morning fantasy in real. Shringi sitting in a lab, thinking, going away for a while, writing some code or getting together some hardware, making something work, getting frustrated on defeats, trying to explain roadblocks. This is a feeling which tells me I finally know what I want to do. Be an explorer.

I will be proud of myself only when I live on the rules of being real and honest and achieve what my raw self can. Rest any success that comes my way will not be enough to satisfy me.

The last two lines were unnecessary but it would be cruel to delete them.

Shringi
16 June 2010

Camera - Man

Its a bright day
there is sunshine on my face
I will sleep on ice with you
but wake up really soon
you can stay cozy with the snow around
I can smile and laugh looking at you

Time to ask
Do you have a camera?
can it click a picture of you under the moon
what an excellent camera it must be
to catch an eternal hold of you.

Shringi
15 - 06- 2010

Music

Now that I think of it, old hindi songs are really good. They are straight forward, simple on the music and beats and are easy. The videos add to their essence. Not that I was listening to any. You can call this an accidental encounter with one.

Mera mann tera pyaasa, mera mann

Shringi
June 15 2010